Moving on....
Next week will be my second month of being single. If I am honest with myself, I will have to admit that this situation is giving me mixed emotions. While I am quite happy being free and able to do whatever I want, I find myself in a situation where I have so much time with my hands than what to do with. Sometimes I get so bored and want to go out but don't know who to go out with.
I knew I will regret the fact that I lost contact and communication with my friends as years went by. I just didn't want to think about it then because I was too engrossed with my happiness. Little did I know that it was just temporary. I read somewhere that Aquarians such as I cannot be caged - I guess we're too weird to just stick to one thing permanently. Now I am suffering the consequences of those actions.
I must admit there are times that I miss you. I miss being with someone...of talking until the wee hours about nothing in particular...I miss going home to someone...I feel so alone sometimes that I feel self pity - specially on weekends. While everyone around me has plans, I have nothing to do but sleep or watch TV. Sometimes I want to go out with my colleagues but I feel the gap...it's just not the same as when I used to go out with my Sykes friends. Now I feel so old and left out.
Almost two months after my break up, I think I am starting to like someone. But I know nothing will come out of it. He is 6 yrs my junior and I am his boss's boss. :( Again, I feel so old. I know I have to start meeting and hanging out with people my age but I don't know how to do that. Most people my age are already married and with kids.
On the positive side, I think I am finally moving on. I cannot say that I am officially free though until after the "three month period." But as early as now I do believe it is really over...I know for sure I won't be liking someone if I am still in love with you...I think this is it...I am moving on...
I knew I will regret the fact that I lost contact and communication with my friends as years went by. I just didn't want to think about it then because I was too engrossed with my happiness. Little did I know that it was just temporary. I read somewhere that Aquarians such as I cannot be caged - I guess we're too weird to just stick to one thing permanently. Now I am suffering the consequences of those actions.
I must admit there are times that I miss you. I miss being with someone...of talking until the wee hours about nothing in particular...I miss going home to someone...I feel so alone sometimes that I feel self pity - specially on weekends. While everyone around me has plans, I have nothing to do but sleep or watch TV. Sometimes I want to go out with my colleagues but I feel the gap...it's just not the same as when I used to go out with my Sykes friends. Now I feel so old and left out.
Almost two months after my break up, I think I am starting to like someone. But I know nothing will come out of it. He is 6 yrs my junior and I am his boss's boss. :( Again, I feel so old. I know I have to start meeting and hanging out with people my age but I don't know how to do that. Most people my age are already married and with kids.
On the positive side, I think I am finally moving on. I cannot say that I am officially free though until after the "three month period." But as early as now I do believe it is really over...I know for sure I won't be liking someone if I am still in love with you...I think this is it...I am moving on...
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