Confused...

I'm really very happy with my special someone right now. I like talking and spending time with the person. Sometimes I'm thinking I'm starting to be addicted to the point of me not wanting to leave the person's side, not even to go to work.

However, everyone tells me that I'm with the wrong person. My roommates keep telling me to break up with the person. My friends, they've accepted it but I know deep down they'd rather see me with someone else. I can't even tell my Maset nor my siblings about it. I don't think they'll understand...plus, I have to show them that I'm "almost" perfect or they might lose their respect.

But this person really makes me very happy. I feel special...I feel loved...wanted...needed. I know there are some things I won't be able to have if I decide to spend the rest of my life with the person but honestly, right now I'm thinking I can do away with those things. Am I doing the right thing? Is this relationship really wrong? As cliche-ish as it may sound..."Can something that feels so right be wrong?"

Out of Town Helpdesk Team Building

After two years of asking and begging for an opportunity for the Helpdesk Team to go out of town, the opportunity has finally come! Last May 14-15, 2005, the A shift L2's (Eric, Jay, Mia, Maya, Kat, Kate, Day, Knought, Badz, Zaldy), L2 TM Jinggoy, plus Macky and former L2's Olan, Rain and Monchie and friends Bakemono, Traiu and Teth enjoyed an overnight stay of swimming, videoke, billiards, drinking and food tripping at Orchid Villa in Laguna.


Billiards? I don't even know how to play billiards!


Night Swimming (No need to get a tan!)


Sexy L2 Girls (of course that includes me)


Having fun in the pool


Complete Attendance (for breakfast!)


Being entertained by L2's very own Yoyoy Villame impersonator


On the way to Tagaytay


At picnic grove! After the night picnic!

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

There's this link on Eric's website about the meaning of your birthdate. When I went to the site, there's another link that asks "what are the keys to your heart.?" I tried answering the questions provided and the last result came up...

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need.
You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

I honestly don't know how to comment on this statement. I guess in a way it is true in that I really don't want to risk falling for the special someone in my life right now. Because as if my life isn't already complicated as it is, I entered a relationship that got me confused and my life even more complicated.

Tonight before I left home for work, I was talking to the person and I was told that a friend advised to keep away from me because time may come "na masaktan lang sha sakin." I honestly didn't know how to react at first because I thought we had an understanding that we'll take things slowly and we'll just enjoy life as it comes to us.

The statement of the friend got me to thinking about a possible future with my special someone. I admit that I am scared of commitment I guess coz I dont want to get hurt again. I have a lot of dreams for the future and I know for a fact that if I really want those dreams to get realized I can't stay with this person. But...who knows...I believe in the word compromise. Maybe we can work something out for the better...

Funny Surveys!

A few hours ago my room mate told me that she checked out friendster and saw my and my ex's bulletin board post titled "Ex Survey." Funny thing is that I really didn't mean to make it look like I'm making "patama" to him but he answered back with comments for me.

When I logged in to my friendster account a couple of hours ago and read his post, I didnt know how to react at first. It was funny because it seemed like after all these months, he was answering all the doubts I've had about our relationship. It also made me feel wistful, kinda reminded me of the better days (hahaha!)

But I'm really glad that no matter if our relationship didnt end very well we're both ok now and living life as we know it *wink wink*

addicted to surveys!

Lately i have been addicted to answering and posting surveys on friendster! It's actually nice finding out what's going on in the mind of friends who are answering the survey.

Here's another survey I was able to find and decided to answer....

...JUST A SURVEY...

1.what made you happy this week?
- payday (hehehe)

2.what made you sad this week?
- nag-away kme nung friend ko

3.are you contented with your life?
- not really, there's still something missing...

4.has someone/somebody make u happy lately?
- yeah...

5.what do you plan to do to him/her?
- di ko alam pa eh...

6.how are you feeling at the moment?
- confused! hahahaha!

7.what/who made you feel that way?
- that someone who made me happy this week

8.are you the type of person who easily gets hurt?
- depends...kung asaran lang di ako mabilis mapikon...

9.do you cry?
- oo naman, i am such a cry baby!

10.have you ever been to a point in your life thatyou've thought about giving up?
- YES..a couple of times

11. the last movie you watched?
- SA MOVIE HOUSE?? "WEDDING DATE"... SADVD.."stuck on you"...

12. with whom?
- sa movie house? secret! sa dvd? denise and pam!

13. the last song you heard?
- swept away by christopher cross...have been playing it over and over!

14. the last thing you bought?
- groceries sa landmark yesterday

15. the last place you went, the last food you ate?
- place? sa landmark, yesterday! food i ate? raisin break ng french baker!

16. the last thing that made you smile?
- got to talk to my last night

17. the last thing you heard from your parent(s)?
- ingat kayo, papa said to me and my sister before he hang up last night

18. the last thing you said to your parent (s)?
- tnx!

19. the last thing you said to one of your friends?
- tnx! (to maya after providing me with answer to troubleshooting questions)

20. the last thing you read?
- troubleshooting steps for sober virus

21. the last person you called?
- UHM.. SI Mai, early this morning =)

22. the last person who called you?
- si joan, a few minutes ago

23. the last person you msg?
- si mai, this morning din

24. the last person who msg you?
- si madaks, askign if 2loy kme mag-badminton

25. the last person who said you're pretty?
- si pam! sweet kid!

26. the last person who gave you a testimonial?
- helpdesk! actually, si eric yun. hehehe

27. the last person who messaged you in ym?
- si kat, gave me phone number ng customer

28. the last person you're with?
- si yam, and my other room mates

29. the last person you kissed goodnyte?
- si mai! hahaha!

30. the last person you kissed goodbye?
- kissed goodbye? si mai din ata eh...

31. the last person you think of before going tosleep?
- yung last kong nakausap that day

32. the last thing you're goin to do before goingto sleep?
- set my alarm clock