Horoscopes....

Here is your horoscope
for Wednesday, January 26:

There's someone special in your life, and
they're about to let you know that they
feel the same way about you. Don't
expect to be in bed early. You've got a
lot of catching up to do.

I have been subscribing to Astrology.com's Daily Horoscope and this is what my horoscope says for today. I'm not really a believer of this stuff but I enjoy getting my readings everyday just to find out if they'll turn out right or wrong. Well, this one is definitely not correct. Hahaha!

LOVE LOST...

LOVE LOST...
By: Mae

If you see me walking the road with someone else
It's not because I like his company
Its because you're not brave enough to walk beside me.

If you hear me talking about him all the time
Its not because he pleases me
Its because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat

If you feel me falling with someone new
Its not because I love him
Its because you're not there to catch me if I fall

If you feel lost, I too am nowhere
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we gonna cross each other's path
Or just completely turn around?

Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound
Don't let me walk with him
Its you I want to walk with

Don't let me talk of him
Its you I want to talk with
Don't let me fall for him
Its you I want to fall in love with.

I came across this poem in my inbox. I remember sending it to myself a long time ago but I completely forgot about it. It reminded me of someone back home...Hayyy, Than! Nang milyari?

Helpdesk Peeps at their BEST!

Happy Birthday, sir Rafi!

It's our AM's bday and where there's food, there's the Helpdesk Peeps. Above is a picture of the guys doing what they're really good at doing, hehehe!

Btw, check out Olan's new haircut! Beware, flies! Hahahaha! :P

CLOSING CYCLES

CLOSING CYCLES
Paolo Coelho

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished.

Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You cans pend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won t take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that.

But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill. None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us.

What has passed will not return: we cannot forever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back. Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away. That is why it is so important (however painful it maybe!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home.

Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place. Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them.

Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else. Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the ideal moment.

Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.

Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust. Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.

Club V

After almost a month of not going clubbing, I finally went out again last friday. Right after a shopping spree and dinner with Badz and Kate, I went out with Anji and her friends. Anji was one of my batch mates in Sykes and I haven't seen her since she resigned from the company almost a year ago.

It was nice seeing her again and we enjoyed the gimik. Specially as another former office mate whom we bumped into at the bar admitted to me that he had a crush on me. That was pretty flattering specially since I also kinda liked the guy.

Anywayz, I'm really feeling so burned out with work and I wana go out again soon. Thing is I can only do this once a week because on my restdays, I have been going home to the province and plan to keep doing so. But I'm really looking forward to going out of town with my friends to celebrate my birthday...at the beach...hopefully in Boracay.

Missing My Mom....

mommy went to heaven, but i need her here today
my tummy hurst and i fell down, i need her right away
operator can you tell me how to find her in this book
is heaven in the yellow part, i don't know where to look

i think my daddy needs her too, at night i hear him cry
i hear him call her name sometimes, but i really don't know why
maybe if i call her, she will hurry home to me
is heaven very far away? is it across the sea?

she's been gone a long, long time
shee needs to come home now!
i really need to reach her
but i simply don't know how

help me find the number, please
is it listed under "heaven"
i can't read these big, big words
because i'm only seven

i'm sorry operator, i didn't mean to make you cry
is your tummy hurting too
or is there something in your eye?

if i call my church maybe they will know
mommy said when we need help that's where we should go
i found the number to my church tacked up on the wall
thank you operator, i'll go give them a call

- anonymous

If she were alive, my mom would've turned 49 last week. Since it was my rest day, I went home and we celebrated her birthday. We had spaghetti and cake for merienda and then bought her some candles and flowers and visited her grave. My mom's been gone for almost four years now and there are times like this that I just miss her so much. There are so many things that I woud've wanted to share and talk to her about. She's really very cool and easy to talk to. I just miss her so much...

Hush

Hush baby, wanna let ya know
This is how its gonna go
If u wanna come and play
Gotta do it my way
Hush baby, dont talk so much
Just wanna feel ya touch
Everything will be ok
If u do it my way

May he rest in peace...

It's only been a little over a week since the last year and a lot's already happened. Most important yet the saddest would be the demise of a good friend and officemate. I'm only starting to get to know him as more than a mere officemate but a very unfortunate incident took him from us. At least now he's with his mom but for everyone he has left behind, he will really be missed.