Longing for Apathy
"Minsan pasaway talaga ang tao. Di mo nman inaaya, dadating at sasali sa mundo mo. Masakit pa nito, kung kelan apektado ka na sa kanya, saka pa sha aalis tangay ang mundong dati ay solo mo."
This past month, all I actually felt was hurt...and I guess, panghihinayang. Try as I might, I can't help feeling helpless coz I can't have the one guy I wanted. I guess you could say I was still hoping...hoping we'll be back together...hoping he meant every word he told me when we were still together...hoping he'll fulfill all those things that he told me before....
Fool that I was, I fell for every word, every look, every touch...I can never get mad at him despite all that I see and feel...and what people tell me...I received a lot of "i told you so's" when we broke up but I never believed that he could and would intentionally hurt me...
But I was wearing my heart on my sleeve...for anyone to break, step on, and trample over....I was a disaster waiting to happen...
I've been dealing with these emotions for over a month now and I found out it's gona tire you out eventually...I am just so tired of living in this emotional crisis!!! I want out...out of this ****hole that I put myself into...
I read somewhere that the opposite of love is not hate but apathy. How I long for the day I would no longer feel anything for him.
This past month, all I actually felt was hurt...and I guess, panghihinayang. Try as I might, I can't help feeling helpless coz I can't have the one guy I wanted. I guess you could say I was still hoping...hoping we'll be back together...hoping he meant every word he told me when we were still together...hoping he'll fulfill all those things that he told me before....
Fool that I was, I fell for every word, every look, every touch...I can never get mad at him despite all that I see and feel...and what people tell me...I received a lot of "i told you so's" when we broke up but I never believed that he could and would intentionally hurt me...
But I was wearing my heart on my sleeve...for anyone to break, step on, and trample over....I was a disaster waiting to happen...
I've been dealing with these emotions for over a month now and I found out it's gona tire you out eventually...I am just so tired of living in this emotional crisis!!! I want out...out of this ****hole that I put myself into...
I read somewhere that the opposite of love is not hate but apathy. How I long for the day I would no longer feel anything for him.
posted by day at
2:16 AM
1 Comments:
Aww... I can relate. But at least you had him, even for just a while. Yun nalang philosphy ko ngayon. Better for a short while than never. But then again, I'm human. I'm selfish, I want him for keeps (teka, sino si him? Ewan ko, kahit ako di ko alam). Hay. True love? Di ko alam kung pano ko malalaman that I have it. Don't worry Day, I feel that we'll see the guy for us soon. New year na, remember? ^_^
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