My Bie's Birthday

On Aug. 18, 2006, Friday, we celebrated mai's bday in my pad. Although her bday is actually the 17th, we had to move it a day because it was a school day. And since mai's sister doesn't want her to spend it in their house (hypocritical overzealous *** that she is) we had the celebration at my place instead.

All her old friends and even her ex, ex's on and istian's ninangs came...Kate also dropped by with AJ and sir Mike, whom we were supposed to introduce to a friend...turned out the friend didn't come til like 1AM...and since sir Mike was only there for his lunch break, they didn't get to meet.

i think mai enjoyed her birthday all in all, despite fights she had with her sister and the slight tampuhan we had (jealousy, y'know)...below are some of the pics taken of her and her friends...

mabul, tukz, tagos, bistek, mai and kulot

maji, kathleen (w/ Fej), mai, istian, tina, mari and nhea

just playin'

Bie and Me playin round...got nothin better to do...

We actually have a lot of moments like this one...despite all the fights and issues, we really really REALLY enjoy each other's company...even when it's just the two of us in my pad, we always find ways to entertain each other and then laugh about it...although i cry a lot with her...i also do laugh a lot...she makes me laugh...even when i'm not in the mood, she is just so darn charming at times and it's so cute...i really love her so much!!!

7 habits signature program

a couple of weeks ago, i attended the signature program for 7 Habits of Highly Effective People. it was sponsored by the company of course...they say it costs 5 thousand bucks each, the manual being 4500 already...

when my boss first told me i was one of the first that he signed up for the program, i was like "why me?" is my life really off course that even my boss noticed it? so i attended the program with a lot of expectations and/or apprehensions...will this really help me? i mean, i don't really think that i need help but my life isn't exactly what people call a "normal" life...

a lot of the material touched me during the program...pictures...video clips...they made me think...plan...choose...to figure out what i really want in life...what i'm really here for...honestly, i expected it to change my outlook...to get back to what i was before...but all the thinking, planning, and choosing where for a life i would want with her...and all that thinking, made me even more confused...

up til now, roughly 2 weeks after my seminar, i still dunno where this will lead me...i know and believe that people come into your life for a reason...a lot of times i really wanna leave it behind and start anew...i think i can do it...people who know me say i can...but is that really what i want...coz there are many times that i don't wanna give it all up...i am happy with her (well, most of the time...)

on my last day of the 7 habits program, her sister went home after a year of working in Ireland...with her being home, i'm no longer able to stay in their house...they come to me everyday, though...her and christian...but til when will we be able to put up with it...i mean, eventually she's gonna get tired...i'm gonna get tired...i'm not even sure i wanna put up a fight anymore...haven't i fought all the battles i can in this relationship? how much more is needed from me?

right now i'm just trying to get along...go with the flow...but it's really crimping me...i feel like i'm in limbo...i'm stuck...not knowing where to go or what will happen next...i fear that i'm never gonna be able to move on...

i so much want to apply all that i've learned in 7 habits but i've no idea where to start...