Happy Birthday to Me!!!

what better way to celebrate my birthday than with the ones I love?

Although it says Jan. 28 on the date of this post, it's already Jan. 29 and I just finished celebrating my 26th birthday. It was actually the first time I celebrated it while in a serious relationship. I started celebrating my birthday last Thursday, Jan. 26 with a dinner at Gerry's Grill with my family (dad, bro and sis) My sister finished taking the board exams for Pharmacists and my dad and bro came from Pampanga to pick her up from my pad. Before they left, my dad treated us to dinner and it was an advanced "birthday dinner" for me since they won't be with me on the day itself.

The next day, 27th, I had dinner at Metrowalk in Ortigas with my amigas (dona, kate, trina and dakers.) Of course my birthday wouldn't be complete if I dont get to celebrate it with them. We had dinner at Cravings and in anticipation of the Chinese New Year, there were festivities like the dragon dance that we enjoyed to watch. As usual, when I'm with these girls spending time with them is always a blast. We were talking and laughing and of course, taking pictures =) the whole time and we didnt seem to notice the time (took us 3hrs to finish) However, since the 27th is also me and bie's monthsary, I couldnt stay long as much as I wanted to. So at around 11pm, we called it a night and went home.

Since I wanted my birthday to come with my bie with me, I picked her up on my way home and then we went home together. When we got home we didnt sleep right away...we had a long talk and for the first time she opened up to me about her past. Although I know it was difficult for her, she talked about what happened to her...about how Christian came along...and I still can't believe how strong she is to be able get through it...before we went to bed she asked me if I still love her despite knowing what I know now...As cliche-ish as this may sound...I love her more because of what I do know now!

When we woke up, she went home to prepare for my birthday dinner. All I wanted for my birthday was to go out with her and Christian but she wanted to cook for me and invite friends to celebrate with us. She went shopping and cooked food and her friends, cousin, and my old roommates came. It was actually fun specially since the food was good and of course it was prepared by my bie...however, I have work today so I didnt enjoy it that much coz I was worried I wouldnt be able to wake up to report for work...but I did and I'm here and I'm really very happy that this year I celebrated my day with my bie and her son.

PAANO NA ANG MINSAN?

Ang hirap no? Ung pilitin kalimutan ang taong mahal n mahal mu...ung taong xa din mismu ang sobrang nanakit sau.. E kaw naman kc sumobra naman confidence mo sasarili....porket alam mong mahal na mahal ka na nya binabalewala mo na! Hay life....ang stupid no? ang tagal mong hinintay ang taong tapat sau, tapos ngayong anjan na d mo naman pinapahalagahan! Ano bang klaseng utak meron ka? Ngayon, nagsawa na sya! Napagod na at unti-unti narin nawalan ng pagmamahal sayo.... 1 araw bigla na lang nyang nasabi sa sarili nya na ayaw na nya at napagod na din syang intindihin kung anong mundo meron ka.... Natawa ka nalang...heheheEh ano? Ako naman nambalewala e! Masaya naman ako kahit wala sya! I dont care! D ko na sya mahal no!!! WOW ASTIG.....

Daling sabihin no? E bat bago matulog sya parin iniisip mo? Bat mga ngiti pa din nya nakalarawan sa utak mo? Bat hanggang ngayon d mo sya makalimutan? Bat namimis mo sya?ung mga txt nia sau na bhe,kain kna ha?? bhe,asan ka?? bhe,mahal na mahal kita tandaan mu yan.. bhe na kta kta ah.. bhe ang cute tlga ng mata mo.. bhe wag na wag mo ko iiwan kailangang kailangan kta.. bhe sbrang saya ko sau...ILOVEYOU.. Dati everytym n tinetext k nia, galit n galit k Kc ang filing mu minomonitor k n nia Oras oras, pag nagseselos siya kala mo wala na ciang twala sau, eh tanga ka pla eh,, mahal ka nga eh, xempre ayaw ka niya mawala.. pag nag aaway, ano? papakita mo sa kanya na kahit mwala cia kayang kaya mo!! ang TAAS NG PRIDE MO!!

Pero ngaun, parang bumaliktad ang mundo..hinahanap hanap mu xa ngaun??!!! O kala ko ba d mo na sya mahal?.... o baka naman d mo lang kayang aminin sa sarili mo ang labis na panghihinayang... Ngayon ako naman ang tatawa.. hahahahahhahah Minsan kc iba ang sinasabi ng puso sa totoong nararamdaman n2! E pano yan wala na sya? Masakit no??? Kasi kahit gusto mo syang kausapin, mkasama d mo na magawa dahil alam mu n ikaw nman ang ODER MAN/WOMAN ngaun sa buhay nia.. at ung dating akala mu wala lng, na pinagbigyan mo sa knya..ang may KARAPATAN... na sa taong MAHAL mo..

Ngayon,sa palagay mo sinong niloko mo? sya ba? Malamang ngayon masaya na sya, habang ikaw patuloy na niloloko sarili mo sa bagay na akala mo totoo!!! the lesson hir is.... Minsan lang dumating ang taong pwedeng magmahal sayo ng totoo at kayang tumanggap ng buong pagkatao moh....... MINSAN lang...... at pag yan pinakawalan mo... baka d mo na kayang ibalik pa ang MINSAN!

New Year

On December 30, 2005, I went straight from work to bie's house. When I got there, bie and istian and bie's kuya and nieces were playing with firecrackers. While we were all busy lighting the firecrackers, istian went inside the house to go to the bathroom. Now, the door to the house was actually quite heavy, it was made of narra and had a spring so it would automatically close. When Istian came out, we dont exactly know how it happened but his hand got caught on the door. He started shouting "mamai" and that's when we all saw that the ring finger on his right hand was bleeding. When I went to take a closer look, the top part of his finger, including the nail, was already out of place and there was so much blood.

Of course we all panicked, mai didnt know what to do...i didn't know what to do...mai's dad didn't know what to do. Good thing, mai's mom and dad just got home and the car was still ready for use...after a couple of minutes, mai brought istian inside the car, went up to change and then me, mai, istian, and mai's dad went to Ospital ng Makati. All through the ride, i was holding istian's hand up while he was crying. He was shouting "Jesus, Jesus"...the whole time, specially in the emergency room as mai kept telling him to pray.

That was a very difficult experience for all of us...even for me...it was the first time i got involved in an emergency. Even with my mom, i was not really there during those times she was rushed to the hospital. It was very scary to say the least...plus the fact that it happened to a 4yr old kid, that was a something else.

Fortunately, everything is ok now...no stitches were necessary and he didnt have a fracture. his finger is now all bandaged up and on the way to recovery =)

Because of what happened however, mai and istian asked me if i can stay with them for the new year. So it ended up that this year, I was not home to celebrate the new year with my family. It was generally a good new year's day celebration with lots of food and kids to play with...at some point though, i have to admit i missed my family...i missed the bbq, and the fireworks my dad prepares, and the food...and just the rituals our family does on new year's eve...

I did spend it though with my new family =) and it was fun...of course except for the fact that we had to clean up istian's wound the day before new year's day and istian was crying in pain again...But what's important is that I shared it with the person I love and her kid...and I hope to share the rest of the year (and the succeeding years of my life) with them.