be missin my maset

Friday was my rest day...as fate would have it, my maset also decided not to go home to the province and instead stay in the boarding house. So that's how it was...just the two of us...alone.

That day I woke up with one of my roommates calling me to come down and eat the breakfast my ate prepared. Of course I declined...they've been trying to get me and my maset to eat at the same time from the moment they found out that we werent in speaking terms.

Last Friday however, my roommates, Sharon and Mom Lian came up after they've eaten breakfast to tell me that Maset left half of her share of breakfast for me. They even added that every morning, my maset would prepare breakfast for 5 people (her, sharon, rachel, mom lian and me) even if I dont eat with them. Of course that got me feeling guilty. I mean I'm still not going to split up with Mai as she wants me to but I know I was wrong in answering back to her coz she is of course older than me.

So after they all left, I went downstairs (while maset was still upstairs) and ate the breakfast they left for me. After doing a couple of chores, I went back upstairs to sleep and found maset packing her things. She only has til Monday to work and at the end of the month she will be leaving for Singapore. I wanted to cry when I saw her empty closet but I just turned my back and went to sleep.

When I woke up I saw her still into her packing so I looked at my phone to check the time and found out it's already 12n and she still hadn't had lunch. I talked to Mai for awhile, told her what my maset was up to and she told me that it was my opportunity to patch things up with her and suggested that I either buy pizza or prepare lunch for her.

Honestly, at first I was hesitant. I didnt want to be rejected...who's to know that if I offer her food she's just going to snub me. But I guess I underestimated my maset. I eventually cooked and prepared lunch, and set the table. By 1pm everything was ready...but i had to force myself to climb up the stairs and call her...i was of course afraid...Thankfully though, I reached our room, opened the door and asked her to have lunch with me and then I went down without waiting for her reply...

After a few minutes (which to me felt like hours) she came down, went outside to buy Coke and then sat down next to me. Hahaha! Success! Now maset and I are ok...we're still not as friendly with each other as we used to be but at least it's a start. The good thing is that we were able to set aside our differences before she left to go abroad. I'm really gonna miss my maset. We've been living in the same house for almost 3 yrs now and I still cannot imagine not seeing her when I get home from work. She's really my closest cousin and she's always looked out for me even when we were still little...

Who's gonna look out for me now?

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it's been a couple of weeks now and maset still isn't talking to me...i really don't understand why she is just so mad at me?!?!? i mean, i'm not hurting anyone...i'm not breaking relationships or anything of the sort...if she's really concerned about me then shouldn't she be trying to at least talk to me instead of just ignoring me? oh well...if it just isn't difficult living with someone you're not in speaking terms with...good thing she's resigning in a month and she'll be leaving the country soon...

anywayz, last night i went out with mai and mai's college friends...i was supposed to go to bagaberde with olan, madaks, trina and kate. however, kate didnt get to follow because she had to do some chores for her dad...i had dinner with olan and trina and then asked to be left behind to go with mai and mai's friends...i promised my friends i'll follow for the second set at baga however i wasnt able to go anymore...now olan is mad at me and i don't know if he'll speak to me when i see him...

it's just that i felt that i had to be with mai because i didnt want my bie to get into a fight...mai's known to ALWAYS get into trouble because mai easily gets "high blood"...last night there almost was...good thing i was there and mai got to control herself...mai actually wanted me to leave and go with my friends coz mai doesnt want me there if ever there would be trouble but i insisted on staying...

i really hope my friends try to understand why i couldn't follow anymore...